if i were God

i started reading the Bible again

this time, through the lense of all my newfound judgment and sin

catching myself wondering

what i would do

if i were him

if i woke up one morning and were suddenly God

i don't think i'd realize

til i turned the lights back on

i'd still ask permission

say something like

let there be light or 

let there be light please

and because i am God

it would be good

the next thing i would do is become aware and afriad

i would need to make some frinds to keep me company

i'd build decoys in my image

and have them describe what they saw in me

not just one

but two or eight billion

just to be a bit cautionary

and immediatley after that

i'd fuck up, alot

i'd struggle with self esteem

and lacking the vocabulary to descrbe myself, 

i'd place that burden on my lot

i'd call myself father

then creator

then light

then love

just have them say nothing

with their hands thrown up above

i'd make promises that contradict themselves

loos track of the covenants i keep

i'd get overstimulated by my creations 

and grow deafened by their weeps

i'd drown them out

then draw them near

and they wouldn't know what to think

if i woke up in the center of the universe

with a permanent marker in my hand

i'd doodle

i'd scribble

i'd scratch

i'd brand

the canvas would bleed and

i'd do whatever i can to continue my plan

knowing the portrait i draw is the fate of all man

i would sacrafice myself

use my own blood

cover up the mess and start a new

and in an equally, careless brutal manner

i'd mark

i'd claw

i'd bite

i'd chew

i'd do whatever I need to do

just to make my prophecies come true

and after lifetimes of turmoil and self discovery 

i'd forgive myself

and just let the world be

because ignorance doesn't stop at heaven's gate

for we all truly know not what we do

including me